Friday + Saturday    

Friday... I should've entered an entry in my blog but i failed to do so.. I was so preoccupied -- i have been writing hell long letters for people i care for. .. i was busy reading the da vinci code which has been delayed, also, due to the letters i prioritized more.. but the hell.. all went to nothing. <except for the thing i had for some few people>.. Moving on. .

There's this party for Karen's sister. "Katrina" is her name. .. I don't know anyone who's attending, but for a few namely Karen, of course; mars; gerard; kaycee; and fong.. I thought of not going.. but I had to. .. I have something to give away which you won't give a shit about, anyway.

Arriving there, karen caught my attention. she fetched me up <although it didn't seem right>. As we <edrick and i> entered, Mars, Kaycee, Gerard, Quino, and this other girl named Anj were already sitting on that table next to the salas <I wondered what they were talking about> .. . Everything looked like a reunion for us, or much better, a form of our youth celebration.. <coz we were the only guests below their age level.>.. It was nice being with them once again, being with the people who can be considered a big part of my life as an individual, as me.. <yeah. yeah.>.. but after a while, maybe it was 30 minutes after we arrived, there was an incident that made me feel bad. It was a tingling feeling of remorse—for coming there or for whatever the reason behind was… But it got fixed up, it was nobody’s fault and there was no one responsible for asking some forgiveness. And for the lame fact, we are just people who commit mistakes... Oh yes. I remembered giving the letter I had for Karen 5 mins after I have arrived. So was Mars’s intention in giving me the CD he had made for me then. Blah blah. Back into the room where all the people were at peace again, I handed the letter to Mars.. . <he just finished jamming with rardo if I’m not mistaken. ..> yadayada. So there was kaycee in that room also. My bexx and I were like laughing like hell when we started talking about shits. .. It was fun. .. <especially the time we were chilling out in the sofas.. > nyahaha.♀ü I had a scan through a little books in the library. Yes. Some were good. Some weren’t interesting at all. We remained silent and still for quite while… [grar!]ü so some of us walked out then came in . we had a lot of stuffs done… we went swinging.. we went ghost story-telling. We went bonding?. And we went dinner-ing.. we went laughing. It was a night of fun- worthwhile.

Karen: Thanks much for the invite although it wasn’t really your day.. ü I had so much fun.. I wonder what’s gonna happen on 09.27.04. <It’s a Monday yo!xD> Take Care always.ü <I’m happy that you wasted a little of your precious time in reading the letter.. Take note of what I wrote there, huh.> ü *hugs* ::M::

Kaycee: oohh bexx.. Thanks for making me company too.. Well, you weren’t fat at all. <I said that coz I have no idea as to distinguish fat from thin.. J take care.. I’ll always be here for you! Love yah.ü ::G::

Gerard: Kuya rard! Well.. thanks for being there too, although we didn’t have that chance to talk much but still your presence was enough.. good luck. And we’ll always be here for you.ü *hugz* ::K::

Mars: Ahemm. Well, obviously, I know you already read the letter. It was one fucked up kind so sorry about it. Anyways. Thanks for being there last Friday and for the CD!ü.. you’re good. You’re good. Keep rockin`. Take care too! \m/ ::K::

Quino: there.. I know you missed someone.. I believe you’re hurt cause of that.. But the heck, you’re still good. You managed to live without your one. Take care!ü ::L::

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Saturday..

Some words to think about. Some words that do hurt. Some words…

I would be better off without you..

It would be good for me to forget them..

I regret it knowing you..

I have nothing against them, in fact, they’re good..

I’m still young. I have a life.

It hurts. I don’t want them to be part of me.

Forget it. ..

I chatted with Lyka last night and for those who are interested in reading this. Go on. Ü This was the detailed events that occurred the Friday night.

<@`ricoy> KUWENTO ka nga!!!!!

<@``lykaaaa> Ikaw na lang!

<<@`ricoy> what quento..?

<@``lykaaaa> Bilis bilis ggooo!!!!

<@``lykaaaa> Anything!!

<@`ricoy>uhhhmmm... what to say..? *thinking*

<@``lykaaaa> Last night..?
<@`ricoy> yeah... last night..?

<@`ricoy> uuuhhh... mars was there.

<@`ricoy> so were kaycee and Gerard

<@`ricoy> and myself and my kuya.

<@``lykaaaa> Cool.

<@`ricoy> we were originally 7 but this gurl left.

<@`ricoy> soo... soo... i was wearing white shirt and khaki.

<@`ricoy> kaycee: blue top

<@`ricoy> gerard: white polo ata.

<@`ricoy> mars: the same

<@`ricoy> Karen: black top then khaki

<@``lykaaaa> LoL

<@``lykaaaa> Okee..?

<@`ricoy> then... when i got thurrr.. they were all seated down.

<@`ricoy> i handed my gift for ren's sis. and karen's letter from me.

<@``lykaaaa> I see.. I seee!

<@`ricoy> then.. then... kaycee and i were talking about people.. and started laughing

<@`ricoy> mars and gerard were busy playing songs.

<@`ricoy> karen, OTOH, was right thurrr...

<@`ricoy> :P

<@``lykaaaa> LoL

<@`ricoy> then i sat on this chair across the seat were LYKAA was seating.

<@`ricoy> he was watching wrestling..

<@`ricoy> :P

<@`ricoy> then something happened.

<@``lykaaaa> Weh!:P

<@``lykaaaa> That would be.?

<@`ricoy> then we went to the library just to cool down ourselves.

<@`ricoy> *the happening was just a thing, with no importance at all*

<@`ricoy> *wink*

<@`ricoy> then we bonded there.

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<@`ricoy> i handed my letter for mars too.

<@`ricoy> but before that, he gave me this cd..

<@``lykaaaa> Nyahaha!:P ayt.

<@`ricoy> welll... karen brought out some cookies for us to eat..

<@`ricoy> *of course*

<@`ricoy> then

<@[q]> ...?

<@`ricoy> my kuya and i havent taken dinner yet.

<@[q]> kulang po ang food..

<@`ricoy> yadayada. chit-chat. then.. we went out for some chilling.

<@`ricoy> then then. i sat on this sofa with kaycee next to me and began talking and talking as if we never had any contact.

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<@`ricoy> so.. soo.. gerard was thurrr also with mars of course.

<@``lykaaaa> Yeee.

<@`ricoy> then i got lost.

<@``lykaaaa> Lost.?

<@`ricoy> they went away.. leaving me behind. .all alone. so i decided to find them.

<@`ricoy> i was able to anyway.

<@`ricoy> then..

<@``lykaaaa> Bakit ikaw lagi ung naiiwan.?

<@``lykaaaa> LOL

<@`ricoy> karen and i went to the library again to check out the letter and the thing i had for her..

<@`ricoy> then soon followed mars and the rest of the company.

<@`ricoy> mars was about to read what i had.

* @`ricoy asking if lyka can still follow what i've been typing..?

<@``lykaaaa> of course.

<@`ricoy> then.. then.. they stopped the reading thing. for i prohibited them to.

<@`ricoy> so so.. everyone remained silent. so i walked out.

<@``lykaaaa> LoL!

<@`ricoy> i went to get some drink.

<@`ricoy> then when i came back.. everyone was deadma.

<@`ricoy> so i had to get out again.

<@`ricoy> then this time i stayed alone in tha sofa.

* ``lykaaaa sets mode: +o ``motie

<@``lykaaaa> Ahh ok.

<@`ricoy> after some while, they started talking again. and people started coming in the library, just to take the cr which is next to the library.

* ``motie is now known as motie

<@`ricoy> sso soo.. we had so much to do in that place already. so we went out.

<@`ricoy> i was the one playing with the computer and changing the music..

<@`ricoy> i had dinner that time.

<@``lykaaaa> Continue.

<@`ricoy> then karen'ds mom approached mars who was standing behind me, asking him if he can do the accompaniment for the singing.

<@`ricoy> so i had eat fast.

<@`ricoy> then after, i went out and saw a lot of people who's definitely older than we are.

<@`ricoy> btw, that was a celebration of our youth.

<@``lykaaaa> Haha

<@`ricoy> it's the WORLD's youth day for us.

<@`ricoy> nyway.. we went back into the dining area.. and made some kuwento.

<@`ricoy> due to extrme boredom, we decided to get off that area and we went to the so vast garden.

<@`ricoy> there were 2 swings area.

<@`ricoy> one with the broken swing.

<@``lykaaaa> Swwwiiinng

<@`ricoy> and another like the one wherein 4 pople can sit on.

<@`ricoy> *eople

<@`ricoy> so.. after some time, i got the chance to make asar quino.

<@`ricoy> i was doing the signs cory aquino had duting his time...

<@[q]> PWEH!

* @`ricoy is wondering if lyka can still visualize what's going on..

<@`ricoy> so...

<@`ricoy> moving on...

<@``lykaaaa> Go. Go go.

<@`ricoy> gerard, kaycee, her yaya, and mars were on that place.. the swing where 4 people can sit

<@`ricoy> it was moving.. of course. (swinging)

<@`ricoy> i, OTOH, was on the other swing... and karen seating next to me.

<@`ricoy> weell.. quino was there.... he was on the top of the swing where kaycee had seated...

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<@``lykaaaa> Yeeeesss..

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<@`ricoy> quino served as the one who pushes tha thing to let it move

<@`ricoy> btw, kaycee and mars started telling ghost stories and shit.

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<@``lykaaaa>

* X sets mode: +o chel

<@`ricoy> kaycee gave in to that... in fact, she wasnt able to sleep well..

<@`ricoy> oh well...

<@``lykaaaa> Ooh mehn. * chel is now known as `]cH|LL[-

<@`ricoy> we sat alternately.. i mean, when someone got out, another would sit in.

<@`ricoy> then mars was on the other end of the swing.. opposite of quino's location.

<@`ricoy> so so...

<@`ricoy> we were talking about crap...

<@`ricoy> then there...

<@``lykaaaa> Well.. that’s a fun topic.

<@``lykaaaa> Joke

<@``lykaaaa> Go.go

<@`ricoy> kaycee's yaya went away na. so there was this available space next to kaycee

<@`ricoy> gerard sat in.

<@`ricoy> then mars went down and sat beside me.

<@`ricoy> i realized that it was time for the 2 couples to sit..

<@`ricoy> so i decided to get out, but karen insisted i should stay.

<@`ricoy> so mars went out.

<@`ricoy> then made ikot.

<@``lykaaaa> Ayyy. corny

<@`ricoy> then karen sat beside me na.

<@`ricoy> *haha!

<@`ricoy> so there..

<@``lykaaaa> LoL!

<@`ricoy> karen was also on the place where mars stood even before.

<@`ricoy> making tulak .

<@`ricoy> <first filipino>

<@`ricoy> then.. there...

<@`ricoy> i got so hilo after.

<@[q]> .....how bout that part when you got stuck when you wanted to go out...... :P

<@``lykaaaa> Lol

<@`ricoy> yeah.

<@`ricoy> okay i forgot about that.

<@[q]> Jowk.

<@motie> [­oh yesh :

<@`ricoy> after being hilo, we had to get out.. as i nall of us seating on that swing.

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<@``lykaaaa>

<@`ricoy> quino had hit me to the pole which had made my head go swirling and shit.

<@`ricoy> then and there..

<@`ricoy> we got out.

<@`ricoy> although the swing was moving..

<@[q]> Onga pala, suri..

<@[q]> nakakatamad din mag tulak sa inyo eh.

<@[q]> :P

<@`ricoy> and that time where we were trying to get out.. my ass didnt manage to get

out.

<@``lykaaaa> LoL!

<@`ricoy> it was because of the wallet which stuck in the pole.

<@``lykaaaa> Nyaha

<@`ricoy> so i was left there again and tried a second shot.

<@`ricoy> it was a success

<@``lykaaaa> Hooray!

<@`ricoy> so so.. gerard got hilo as well..

<@`ricoy> so he had to get out first..

<@[q]> Hehehe.\

<@`ricoy> i was feeling so bad that i went to the CR...

<@`ricoy> then went back again.

<@``lykaaaa> Oh mehn.

<@`ricoy> this time my kuya and gerard talked about some serious matter..

<@``lykaaaa> Regarding.?

<@`ricoy> while the 3 of us excluding quino were seated back into the swing.

<@`ricoy> the topic's what i dont know.

<@``lykaaaa> Hehe

<@`ricoy> so kaycee.karen.mars. and i started talking about stuffs.

<@`ricoy> and were discussing matters...

<@`ricoy> so... fong texted karen... saying that he's in shaw.

<@`ricoy> and he started walking...

<@`ricoy> after 15 minutes again..

<@`ricoy> fong texted telling ren that he's in #660 na.

<@`ricoy> so karen wanted us to make salubong him.

<@`ricoy> it was nearly 12 then..

<@`ricoy> so there we met fong.

<@`ricoy> then.. in like a while, kaycee's gota go na.

<@`ricoy> kaycee's mom knew that all the people are all gurls in that party

<@`ricoy> so when she said bye, it was like this "bye gurls".. nyahaa

<@`ricoy> ...

<@`ricoy> so there...

<@`ricoy> wait...

<@`ricoy> it reminded me of something.. we had a topic about smoking and the dangers of drugs..

<@`ricoy> based on true-to-life situations.

<@`ricoy> and shit.

<@``lykaaaa> LOL. Ayan.

<@`ricoy> then.. mars. karen. and i were seating on the cold damn soil.

<@`ricoy> just for some talking.. and kaycee was like baby-talking kind.

<@``lykaaaa> hehe

<@`ricoy> so... yun we bonded there as youths..

<@`ricoy> yes.. POD-youth of the nation.. oh yeh!

<@``lykaaaa> Hahooo! We are.. we are!

<@`ricoy>

<@`ricoy> and there was never a group pic taken. i think. except for the thing we had while we were in front of the tv.

<@`ricoy> so so...

<@`ricoy> there..

<@``lykaaaa> Ahh.

<@`ricoy> kaycee's got to go na..

<@`ricoy> then in like a while... all the people started leaving.

<@`ricoy> karen and mars were out of nowwhere.

<@`ricoy> and in 15 minutes, my sundo arrived.

<@``lykaaaa> Ooh.

<@`ricoy> i had to look for them.. searching them in the cavernous places.. then found them in the library.

<@`ricoy>

they were just there. looking at pictures..

<@`ricoy> nyahaha.

<@`ricoy> so there.

<@``lykaaaa> Wahaha!

<@`ricoy> i told them bye then karen gave me a hug. then so did mars.

<@`ricoy> that's the end of the unending story..

<@`ricoy> nyek.

<@`ricoy> time for bedtime dear. :P

<@``lykaaa> Lol.:

<@`ricoy> nyak!

Here we go again...

I'm sick and tired of blogging. Blogging doesn't make any sense to me, or if it does, it only means that i've got my emotions uncontrolled.. Yes. It is a medium of releasing all the emotions within, if emotionally occupied that is. Another reason, the holding ability of our own hearts/brain has already exceeded the limit so we in turn share it to others... :) If some thought enters your brain, you can just type it and post it, but are you assured that all your readers would comment on it..? or maybe if some experience you had is the one you wanted to share however, it shows no sign of relationship with the one reading it.. the thing you have cooked would just go to the bin.. see! that's a waste of time and a waste of energy..  grar. but the good side was you were able to share something eventhough not appreciated.  [force x distance= work.]

oh yeah. (i've been so glued on the words like the yo, oh yeah, yes! they're just my OWN words! :) you can't take that away from me.).. yadayada. i wanted to read the "da vinci code" since the day i bought it and it has been 2 days and yet, i haven't reached the middle part of it. Out of the 108 chapters of the book, im just in the 4th chapter.. god. that's so slow! it would take me centuries to finish that.. moving on with the book, i purchased it last saturday, and it was because of coincidence. I merely thought of the limited vocabulary i have, and that i should know how to read, read more. cause im way behind the knowledge my friends possess. ngek. i got it from powerbooks at around 7.30 pm, in greenbelt 3, i think. I'm regular in greenbelt. every saturday you'd see my face either in the church, which has become the purpose of me going out, or just making ikot in landmark, glorietta or anywhere else--with my family of course!

Last Saturday, Mars was there but unfortunately we weren't able to get to see one another.. <we were lost. he was in timezone and i was in music one.> then i went directly to the church for mass. <see how holy i am.> nah... then came monday.:) this was one new day! i experienced enrolling which i never done before :) grar. i went galleing kanina and it was fun. so good. so wonderful.. anyway.. that would be it for today.. i'm bored. :) xoxo -reekoi

Once Again.

I love blogging but you see, there's only a few entries in the list. I find it tiring making one but if i had to express what i want to, i need to pursue this tiresome activity. Oh well. I miss my YM as well. For 5 months of having not accessed that crap, I dunno what happened with it.. Yesterday was one lucky day for me. I was able to open it, at last!! I was feeling happy for that thing, although it's one lame reason to be happy about.. I chatted once more with those beautiful colored fonts, the buzzing, the status messages and all.. <babaw!> haha!! moving on, i just can't wait for tomorrow.. i'll be out of this HOUSE with some friends hanging-out in galle.. and and. that's all.. >i just lurve it!

Blank Space.

As for me, I had no other things to do but just lie here and simply devote myself into playing.. I've never got the chance to get off my ways, and do some hang-outs with my friends, which i do crave for eversince we had this creepy vacation. It's awful, you know. Coz coz.. you just, i don't know. A list full of things to do was waiting for me and when the moment i woke up, it faced me. There were tons of things to do, and that included cleaning this house, with all these household chores which were not done in the past. <Take note: And as we get older and older, our chores are getting harder and harder! damn>.. So i woke up at exactly 9:00.. but before starting doing all these shit, i decided to play!! It seemed that playing has become one of my talents or should i say my daily activity or whatever.,  well anyway, i got so pissed at this game so i had to stop this and began watching this daily cartoon in ABS-CBN.. oh yes, i've turned out some kid.. but who cares, it still gave some lessons to me... like the valuing friendship kind that i do cherish and have concerned about all the time, and some others.. well well well... i pushed through with the decision of doing all the chores in store for me, because i had no other choice, but go with it or else, my head's gonna be twisted.. hehehe. so in such doing, i finished all what has been assigned like 1.30... haha.. uhhhmmm.. i kindah felt a little bit sleepy coz of that... but i still persisted, and went playing againn... oohhh.. playing is good. it makes you forget all of your misery.  haha! uhhhmmm.. i went videoke-ing after that.. it was all cool! coz i was able to rehearse my voice.. <haha, as if!>... i even sang the my way, which was all teerrible. and the songs of air supply and the earth wind and fire.. <amazing, isn't it..?, how oldies!>  what else..? yes, something reminded me of this.. the star circle quest ekek! i just love them all, coz they're all cool especially the cute Sandara gurl! whoopieee! hahaha!! <i watched them again in today's edition> hehe. <they're but amazing>.. so there.. i went chatting accompanied by the weird crap computer i have that disconnects at a given minute.. <That was a hassle indeed.>  then all over again, went playing and playing... aaahhh!!!  nakakasawa!! hahaha!

That was the day for me.. I just got some overload.. Paranoia.. and thinking!! it was the time for me to relax, think, and contemplate!!

Thanks alot, friends.. it was just at this time irealized your importance to me as a being!! woohhooo!!! <phone again..> 11.37 pm

Reflections.. Realizations..

While scanning to some of the pages in this book entitled "If you really wanted to GROW CLOSER TO GOD I would...", i came across some ideas which struck me in one way or another..  [Admit when I'm wrong]: [No one one likes to admit doing wrong. And yet, when we confess our mistakes to God and to those we have hurt or offended, we are, in a sense, admitting that we are not perfect and that we need his grace in our lives.. Don't let pride and denial limit your possibilities.] We can never avoid doing wrong. And it is when we do wrong we realize that we did wasn't right. Commiting mistakes is normal. It is part of our development as young individuals towards being mature-thinking beings.. Humility and Acceptance take part in the completion of admitting the wrong we have done.. The excessive pride dwelling in our hearts is the main reason why we are being hindered in admitting our faults. We are being cleaned through a simple act of repentance.. delivery from the chains of darkness..  

[Practice Humility]: We live in a day in which those with political clout, wealth, beauty and fame occupy the "Most Admired" lists. The last shall be first, and the first shall be the last. A small seed becomes a great tree. One lost sheep takes the priority over the rest of the flock. >>Humility is the best virtue. It would be good if we would learn to humble ourselves, in times of our victories, achievements and success and truly will we be looked up by our fellow beings.  Humbling ourselves is not that easy as what we think it is since it's when in those experiences, the greatest sin of all, which is pride, butts in.

[Welcome Trials]: God does not cause our pain and struggle, but He does allow a certain amount of adversity to come into our lives. His purpose is to see that we grow strong and resilient rather than weak and complacent. So smile when you encounter trials.. See them as opportunities to grow strong in your faith and close to God. >> Woohoo! trials again.. Maybe, life does suck with all the trials we face day-by-day. But it's just the trials, right...? not the whole life we have.  We can never let go of our problems cause it's permanently grounded in our lives whether we like it or not. Welcoming them is the next best thing to do instead of rejecting it, not minding it or totally hating it. It may result to more complications.    And another thing, facing these would make us more developed, more mature, and stronger than what we used to be. The trials are just a test of our strength and our faith in our GOD, to better mold us into what we really are. 

[Let go of Past Failures]: As imperfect people, we make mistakes. We drop the ball, miss the mark, fall on our faces, use to many clichẻs. Failure can make us feel inadequate, especially when we compare ourselves to others who seem to be more effectively. When you feel like a failure compared to others, remember your proper motivation in life. >> I admit, I take everything so seriously that the failures I get to come across to have made me less of a person. Failure marks the rise of a new beginning, a new phase in life that would help us realize the hidden facts of our existence. Thus, the principle of existentialism includes everything of forgetting and other else more. Letting go and feeling free, starting of a new life, Cycle.

 Well.. That is for today. Life is a tough road to tackle, you may need more energy that you have ever gotten. Life is continuous. Life is a cycle, indeed, it just revolves in ourselves. Whatever we decide on in the present is what our life may be in the future. Life is forever. Balance. the ultimate reciprocality of our existence  

Stars.Everlasting.Limitless.